{He is close}

"the Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit" -psalm 34:18

this past month has been a doozy. growing up, we are so careless, and we always assume that relationships and life will stay the same, right? and then life happens. and kids become individuals, adults. and sometimes, life takes you different directions. even if we are family, we are different people.

this month, i feel like i'm learning another lesson that God wants to teach me. and i always find myself weary and exhausted in saying, "again!?? i JUST learned another lesson!"...sometimes i've heard God go, "i know...deal with it"

of course, i'm not positive He says this, but i feel it. it may be me telling myself to shut up and just do what i feel i need to do. i realize i keep learning lessons because i'm a crappy human being. i dont deserve any of the love and grace that has been given to me. but God loves me. God gives me NEW mercies every day. it amazes me! i'm loved! i'm forgiven! yet i'm such a horrible person! :)

im not iffy on sharing how i feel about this. because i think a lot of us feel this way when we re-encounter the undeserving, overwhelming love that our God has for each and every one of us.

"no eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love Him- but God has revealed it to us by His spirit"
1 Corinthians 2:9-10

{God will NOT fail me}

   saying that "God will NOT fail me" is not a selfish thing. its not me saying i'm better than anyone, or that i have it all together. whats it saying? its saying that i believe and have faith that God fulfills HIS promises to even the least of these...me.
   in the Bible, God has SO MANY promises about love, forgiveness, salvation, the Holy spirit, everlasting love, encouragement, provision, hope, blessings, answered prayers, Christ returning, peace, joy, freedom! are you sick, depressed, disappointed, tempted, weak, afraid, doubtful, fearful, grieving, suffering, having trouble obeying authority?
   SO MANY ANSWERS...if only we took the time to read the scripture and be re-assured of Gods promises!
   "no eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who LOVE HIM" 1 Corinthians 2:9
   my hope is that every day i continue to love my Savior, who has promised me every good thing that He has. sometimes i feel so stupid for being doubtful and unfaithful to Him. yet He is faithful to me.
   how unworthy! HOW LOVED! God works for the GOOD of those who LOVE HIM... such hope that we can cling too!