{worship thought}

"ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. for everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened."

 i feel like this verse really portrays how i've seen WORSHIP lately. it all started this past spring with me being challenged to "see myself at the throne" when i worship. i have also always been challenged to "mean what you sing" while worshipping.

 this year how i worship has completely changed, and i'm so grateful! it did just start off with me forcing myself to imagine me being at the feet of Jesus...and over time God has blessed that and made it so much more.

 while i worship...i imagine that i am at the feet of Jesus and my whole past week of good and bad circumstances come to mind. i find myself thanking Him for all the blessings that past week, and pleaing for better outcomes than what i see coming.

  what do you see when you worship?

  do you hear God when you worship?

{thankful}

things i am thankful for...

1. my husband: joel is such an understanding, hard-working,compassionate and loving husband. he is definately my better half. he calms me down, defends me, loves me, challenges me, and reminds me every day by his actions of how lucky i am to have married someone completely opposite of me:) he makes me laugh every day..fo real

2. family: i am thankful that my in-laws and parents hang out even when joel and i are not around. i love that they go out for dinner together and go to each others houses to visit without worrying whether or not joel and i will be there. i love that i am still close to my parents and can talk to my in-laws about anything! its such a blessing to have your parents and in-laws always in constant support of your marriage and who you are as a person.

3. my car: God told me the other day, "sara, your car will not die". needless to say, i wish i was getting a new car soon, but again, its not a priority!...i guess :) so i am thankful it will survive whatever we encounter until the proper time.

4. our apartment: i love my apartment. true, i complain about it sometimes. but its space that we NEED. my biggest worry is that we buy a house that has un-needed space. when we move, i will miss having to re-organize the closet every time i do laundry just so it all fits again...and i will miss my whole apartment being a laundry room.

5. my job/my church: LOVE my job. i love the kids, i love my volunteers, and i love how Jesus is working at the Vineyard. i love that we love people and i love that i am loved there as well. its such an open and honest place, where God is present and the Holy Spirit is always active. i love that prayer is a priority! the friends/support i have there is such a fun and loving aspect of my life. i couldnt imagine my life without those people!

6. small group/friends: i am so grateful that joel and i have a group of friends that we, hmmm, probably hang out with about every night. and some that come over once a week! :) i love living life with all of them! they bring so much laughter to joel and i's life. and i love that we each have others to go to and enjoy time with even when were in our pjs.

7. marriage: i love my marriage. i love that God has blessed our marriage and i love that it is easy for us to seek God in our marriage. marriage has been a blast :)

8. Jesus/God/Holy Spirit: i would be doing this whole paragraph in caps if i could :) i love being in love with Jesus. i love that i can talk to God and know that He hears me. i love that the Holy Spirit is alive and active in my life and has allowed so many blessings upon me, joel, and our marriage. i love that despite what people say, God still reigns. i love that He is the judge, and we are not. i love that He is in control, no matter what people do. i love that He is compassionate, yet just. that He blesses, yet punishes. God is God. and i love that i am not in charge of my own life! i love that He has it planned out for me already, and i can just enjoy the ride while loving Him.

what are you thankful for? lets not skip to Christmas!

{He is close}

"the Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit" -psalm 34:18

this past month has been a doozy. growing up, we are so careless, and we always assume that relationships and life will stay the same, right? and then life happens. and kids become individuals, adults. and sometimes, life takes you different directions. even if we are family, we are different people.

this month, i feel like i'm learning another lesson that God wants to teach me. and i always find myself weary and exhausted in saying, "again!?? i JUST learned another lesson!"...sometimes i've heard God go, "i know...deal with it"

of course, i'm not positive He says this, but i feel it. it may be me telling myself to shut up and just do what i feel i need to do. i realize i keep learning lessons because i'm a crappy human being. i dont deserve any of the love and grace that has been given to me. but God loves me. God gives me NEW mercies every day. it amazes me! i'm loved! i'm forgiven! yet i'm such a horrible person! :)

im not iffy on sharing how i feel about this. because i think a lot of us feel this way when we re-encounter the undeserving, overwhelming love that our God has for each and every one of us.

"no eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love Him- but God has revealed it to us by His spirit"
1 Corinthians 2:9-10

{God will NOT fail me}

   saying that "God will NOT fail me" is not a selfish thing. its not me saying i'm better than anyone, or that i have it all together. whats it saying? its saying that i believe and have faith that God fulfills HIS promises to even the least of these...me.
   in the Bible, God has SO MANY promises about love, forgiveness, salvation, the Holy spirit, everlasting love, encouragement, provision, hope, blessings, answered prayers, Christ returning, peace, joy, freedom! are you sick, depressed, disappointed, tempted, weak, afraid, doubtful, fearful, grieving, suffering, having trouble obeying authority?
   SO MANY ANSWERS...if only we took the time to read the scripture and be re-assured of Gods promises!
   "no eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who LOVE HIM" 1 Corinthians 2:9
   my hope is that every day i continue to love my Savior, who has promised me every good thing that He has. sometimes i feel so stupid for being doubtful and unfaithful to Him. yet He is faithful to me.
   how unworthy! HOW LOVED! God works for the GOOD of those who LOVE HIM... such hope that we can cling too!
  

{God meets us where we are}

   something that has really been on my heart lately is the fact that God does, can and wants to meet us where we are. everyone has had a time in their life where it just seems like you need to stop. so many times i feel like giving up, i'm frustrated because i feel like my spiritual life isnt going anywhere, im persecuted,  misunderstood, ignored, feeling not useful...
  as i was driving in my car one day, i just cried out to God because i wanted my spiritual life to be out of the "dead zone". i was ready to meet God again and go on with my life.
   i guess my point is this. yes, there are times when we just want to give up and want God to meet us. but does that mean we completely ingore what God HAS done in our life and decide to start making destructive choices? or does that mean we continue to make healthy decisions to the best of our ability and ask God to help us fall in love with Him all over again. calling out to God is seeking His face with all your heart.
  
what do you think?

"Call upon me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you and you will honour me"
Psalm 50:15 
    

{making God famous}

   last week, i had the awesome and incredibly amazing opportunity to take the youth on a trip (Summer of Service at the Vineyard in Cincinnati, Ohio). as it is with every year, it is truly amazing and life changing. so much happens that week, that it takes months to debrief! that week only proves that the goodness of God can be so overwhelmingly peaceful and life changing.the great part was, was that there was no drama! in 8 years of being a youth leader, that was a FIRST! so thats why i may bring this up a few more times :)
   the theme for last week was "making God famous". how brilliant, right? the song that came to my mind all week was I Will Boast! (Jeremiah 9:23-24, 1 Cor. 1:31)
   the phrase in there that says, "i will boast in the Lord my God, i will boast in the one WHO IS WORTHY". it really hit me last week, i am not worthy. not worthy at all. but somehow God wants  us to be worthy!
   what makes me worthy? the cross! purely the blood of Christ has made me worthy.

  

 the cross makes you worthy. the cross makes you justified.

we are worthy because we are LOVED. an act of love beyond understanding.

the action of the cross is the greatest act of fame.

i just need to stop and let Christ love me. i need to recognize that what HE did made me valuable.

{expectations}

   the past year, i have been weighed down by the expectations others have set upon me. after a conversation this morning, i just wanted to yell, "maybe if you didnt expect so much of me, you wouldnt always be disappointed!" does this happen to anyone else?
   i'm expected to do a lot, but i also put expectations on others as well. are you constantly disappointed in someone? angry or hurt by how they treat you? maybe we should start thinking about how we see that person. how do we treat that person, love that person. do we respect them? if someone constantly upsets you, its OK to take a healthy step back.
   we all need the opportunity to step back and grow. grow emotionally and more in love with Jesus. if you think about it...thats ALL we need to do....
BECOME MORE IN LOVE WITH JESUS

{God is serious. so maybe we should be too}.

"this is a cause worth living for. it is a cause worth dying for. it is a cause worthy of moving urgently on. we have the gospel of Christ in us, and we do not have time to waste. some wonder if it is unfair for God to allow so many to have no knowledge of the gospel. but there is no injustice in God. the injustice lies in Christians who possess the gospel and refuse to give their lives to making it known among those who havent heard. that is unfair." (Radical by David Platt)

   lately i have been becoming more and more frustrated with Christians who claim to be doing the work of Christ, and yet not! in fact, sometimes its the complete opposite!Jeremiah 2:19 states that "your wickedness will punish you; your backsliding will rebuke you. consider then, and realize how evil and bitter it is for you when you forsake the Lord your God and have no awe of me', declares the Lord, the Lord Almightly"(this verse was used because i read it in my devotions. there are, of course many different verses and different context)
   i think, many times, we forget the wrath side of God. we justify our actions based on the fact that our God is merciful, forgiving, loving..etc. yes, He is all things and more, but we still will be held accountable.
   its time to start being more respectful of our Savior, Creator, Father and Daddy.no more justifying, no more listening to false prophets, no more beating around the bush with your friends/family.
   take God seriously. He is, and has, already been very serious.

{who we are now should not reflect who we were}

"Or do you not know that wrongdoers will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: Neither the sexually immoral nor idolaters nor adulterers nor men who have sex with men nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards nor slanderers nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God.And that is what some of you were. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God." 1 Corinthians 6:9-11

   in our meeting this morning, we read 1 Corinthians 5 & 6. afterwards, in my head, i yelled, "you go Paul! tell it how it is!" how often do we hear people justify themselves? or constantly beat around the bush about their actions?
   when i confront people about a sin that i see, they automatically get angry and start to justify. sometimes i catch myself wanting to justify my own sins! SIN is SIN, christians didnt make this decision or draw this line, God did. and yes, it is our job, as christians to confront our brothers and sisters who claim to be in the faith yet do the opposite (1 Cor. 5:9-11) I love when Paul, in 6:5 says, "i say this to shame you..." wooooow!
   i grow tired and sad of seeing those who claim to be believers, yet their actions show completely opposite. you should be ashamed.
   BUT as always, there is hope with God. there is grace and forgiveness. and i love the last part of these verses. i am just now beginning to understand "freedom in Christ".

as a Christian...

...you WERE washed

...you WERE sanctified

...you WERE justified

we were bought at a price!

{its OK to cry}

   our church had a service at noon today, and of course, i wept. we sang the song, Amazing Grace (My Chains are Gone) and once we got to this part, the tears fell freely...

"The earth shall soon dissolve like snow
The sun forbear to shine
But God, Who called me here below
Will be forever mine
Will be forever mine
You are forever mine"

   when we got to the last line, i could picture myself going into the tomb, kneeling down at the deathbed of Jesus, caressing his head and singing this to Him. as a woman, and a wife...i cannot imagine watching Him go through all this pain, and not be able to take care of Him!! in this video (New Again), i couldnt imagine being Mary and the pain she felt of not being able to take care of her son. so when we sang these words, i pictured me with Jesus and assuring Him that BECAUSE OF WHAT HE DID FOR ME, HE IS FOREVER MINE!
   this is the first time i have ever had this perspective. just like we take care of our family and friends, and now Joel. the pure sadness of not being able to take care of Joel if he were in that condition is unbearable to imagine.
    its true, the older you get, you do cry more. not because you get more emotional, but because if you get married, you learn a deeper love. if you have kids, you learn a deeper love. my first Easter with children, i just know i'm going to weep even more.
   the unworthiness! the LOVE!! so let yourself mourn and weep...

...allow yourself to be reminded...

{we cant get away from Him!}

The Power of the Cross

   the link above is a video/song that i have been listening to in order to prepare for Easter. tonight, our youth did stations at the cross. it was so emotional! a youth tonight, when asked if they needed someone to pray with them, was so upset saying, "my heart is just SO heavy!" i love when God lets us feel how He is feeling!

"The God who made the world and everything in it, this Master of sky and land, doesn't live in custom-made shrines or need the human race to run errands for him, as if he couldn't take care of himself. He makes the creatures; the creatures don't make him. Starting from scratch, he made the entire human race and made the earth hospitable, with plenty of time and space for living so we could seek after God, and not just grope around in the dark but actually find him. He doesn't play hide-and-seek with us. He's not remote; he's near. We live and move in him, can't get away from him (HE IS ALIVE)!" Acts 17:24-28

  

THANK YOU, JESUS! CONSTANTLY REMIND MY HEART OF WHAT YOU HAVE DONE FOR ME~Amen

{i want to be wise}

solomon asked for wisdom: 1 kings 3:9

so give your servant a discerning heart to govern your people and to distinguish between right and wrong. for who is able to govern this great people of yours?

God gave solomon wisdom: 1 kings 3:12

i(God) will do what you have asked. i will give you a wise and discerning heart, so that there will never have been anyone like you, nor will there ever be.

solomon's wisdom: 1 kings 4:29

God gave solomon wisdom and very great insight, and a breadth of understanding measureless as the sand on the seashore.

   i was reminded in my devotions last night, that when we ask God, we are HEARD. i think as Christians, its so easy to forget that God is so faithful and loving, that he hears our prayers no matter what they are.

   i went to a prayer class last week, and we discussed "why do we pray, if God already knows what is going to happen?" we simply talked about how God does not fail us, and he RESPONDS to our prayers. they may not be in a timely manner, nor may they be answered, BUT God knows our hearts and our needs.

   are your prayers NEEDS or WANTS?

   in your prayers, is your heart earnestly seeking the Lord?

be aware that God notices your heart, your true motives. prayer is an intimate way to talk with our Savior, and he deserves our time. remember, we are nothing without him, therefore, lets pray to become more WISE and more like HIM.

   pray for wisdom, and you will be heard

   pray for strength, and you will be heard

   pray for peace, and you will be heard

   pray for a change of heart, and you will be heard

pray! pray! pray!

{so hard to watch}

   Psalm 37:7-9

 ⁷ Be still before the LORD
   and wait patiently for him;
do not fret when people succeed in their ways,
   when they carry out their wicked schemes.

 ⁸ Refrain from anger and turn from wrath;
   do not fret—it leads only to evil.
⁹ For those who are evil will be destroyed,
   but those who hope in the LORD will inherit the land.

its so hard to watch friends deal with bad stuff happening in their lives. so many times, i want to go rescue someone from their life of sin and lies. but how do we know when to intercede and when to not? we simply as God and listen for Him to answer, right?

   today, i heard a story about a man who went on a missions trip and walked miles and miles through horrible poverty. when they were coming out of that area, the man then stopped and prayed for a woman. others who were with the man got upset and asked him, "why did you pray for this woman when we just passed miles of poverty stricken lives? what made you just now stop and pray with this woman?" the man replied, "because God told me so".

   we all run into people every day that need the Lord through words of encouragement, prayer, friendship..etc. at times, i get overwhelmed for feeling that i need to care for everyone that i meet, and that is not the case. God knows exactly what He is doing. He knows the plans for each individuals life. that may not always involve ME.

   the trouble i have been having lately, is figuring out whose lives to pour into. sometimes i feel bad for investing in one persons life and not the others, but i need to stop that. learning who to pour into and who to either not pour into, or "not yet" pour into is a challenge.

   i hope we all have 2-3 people that we invest in, be Jesus to, and encourage. we cannot be all that Jesus is, but we do have the holy spirit and power of Christ to pour into others. as a Christian, sharing Jesus is not an option, neither is going out and sharing the gospel. its crazy what aspects of Christianity we turn into options.

Love God*Serve Others*Give Back

are you being Jesus to others?

is your heart ready to be poured out?

pray for God to show you the next STEP with a person, for that may be the only thing you may need to do in a persons life. your job is to not be the answer for a friend, but an encourager and a STEP in the right direction. God is the answer! not us!

{God is the only one who forgets}

   this past weekend, Tara talked about forgiveness and how we need to learn to forgive and empy all of our bitterness. i came to realize that i just push people out of my life, instead of forgiving. to me, "forgive and forget" is pretty much ending my connection with them and moving on, yet the bitterness is still there. its frustrating to realize.
   honestly, i dont mind that many of these people are out of my life, but when i reflect, i feel major bitterness. i was reminded that God is the ONLY one who can forgive and forget, so dealing with bitterness needs to be a priority in my life! and all of us!
   the past few weeks have been a constant reminder of many situations that i need to face head on and move on from. in the midst of it all, i'm glad that i have a husband that is on my side 100% and is there to protect me emotionally.
   the longer we are married, the more my trust is building in him, and i am seeing him as my safety net, and my home as my haven. God is good and he designed marriage just for this...support, safety and love!

"search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. see if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting"

psalm 139:23-24

{good intentions}

   looking back at the past month, its been a blur! i think its so easy to forget priorities in life, and let life just fly by. being sick for 2 weeks didnt help, but still...
   the last few years, its been my goal to be intentional.

• intentional in taking note on lifes lessons
• intentional on knowing good deals at certain stores/restaurants (growing up!)
• intentional of conversations and how i converse with people
• intentional with my relationship with God and how it needs to constantly be improving
• intentional with my relationships with family/friends
• intentional on being uplifting and encouraging
• intentional with prayer and intercession 

   last night, we had an even called FORWARD at The Vineyard Church. it was so powerful and so amazing. we did a lot of "crazy prayer" (thats what i call it anyways). full on, heart/mind/soul indulging prayer for our area. we went all out and it felt great. it just reminded me of how much more intentional i need to be at being a CHRISTIAN. i am in a divine romance, and i need to be intentional in all i say and do for my Jesus. hopefully, this month, i look back and think to myself, "wow...Jesus did a lot through me!"
   on another note, please join with me in prayer for Narumi, my brothers girlfriend. she lives just outside of Tokyo and hasnt been able to sleep the past 2 days due to the many aftershocks. she is terrified, and it breaks my heart! its our jobs as Christians to intercede for the world, so lets do it!
Psalm 4:1-
Answer me when I call to you,
   my righteous God.
Give me relief from my distress;
   have mercy on me and hear my prayer.

"Answer, Narumi, when she calls to you, my righteous God.
Give, Narumi, relief from distress; have mercy on, Narumi, and hear her prayer!"
"Answer, Japan, when it calls to you, my righteous God.
Give, Japan, relief from distress; have mercy on, Japan, and hear their prayers!"

{ "as long as we tithe, God will provide" }

   the past few weeks have been so rewarding, and since i've been sitting here tonight reflecting, i cant believe how blessed i truly am.
   in the past few weeks, God has blessed us with small financial contributions by housesitting, babysitting and i even got to coordinate a wedding! its been a crazy February, but Gods goodness has been in the chaos! joel and i's phrase is "as long as we tithe, God will provide"...and its been proven true! God does not fail us!
   since the fall, ive had the privelage of helping coordinate a wedding for 2 of my volunteers. their whole family is very involved in the childrens ministry at Vineyard, so it was incredible to be alongside them in this process. my mother-in-law was the other coordinator, and i must say, we did a good job :) it was perfect, and they are truly a great example of a Godly couple to their friends and family. congratulations Graig & Andrea!

   on another note, i have the flu :-/ the kids we watched this weak were just getting over the flu, and i guess i still caught it! but i made it through the wedding (and church), which was beautiful and made me honestly forget how aweful i felt and how messy our place is. our home is a large laundry/mud room. but it makes it homey :)
   my husband has been so sweet today. making me toast, getting me blankets, making me some Emergen-C (we are strong believers in this stuff!), getting me water at 2:30 am and praying over my stomach when i'm not sure whats going on (lol). i love being married. i love being loved. and i loved being reminded this weekend of how beautiful and powerful a marriage covenant is!

{God's face is B-E-A-UTIFUL}

the song below is such an important song to me. for years, i have been told how beautiful i am to my God, and my creator. years and years of being told that i was a unique and precious creation...
   on a youth retreat last year, we sang this song and it was the first time i had ever heard it. it was one of those moments where you are truly in AWE of who God is and what he does. i had always been told, that when you pray, praise God and THANK Him for what he has done and is doing for you, then ask your requests. i am also always thinking about the characteristics of God, but i had NEVER thought about how "beautiful" God was...let alone think of TELLING/SINGING to him how beautiful he is. singing this song was so liberating and incredible. i hope you understand my short and simple point. telling God HE WAS BEAUTIFUL and to turn that whole process around was a very life changing and emotional moment.
   Here are the lyrics and the link:

I see Your face in every sunrise
The colors of the morning are inside Your eyes
The world awakens in the light of the day
I look up to the sky and say
You're beautiful

I see Your power in the moonlit night
Where planets are in motion and galaxies are bright
We are amazed in the light of the stars
It's all proclaiming who You are
You're beautiful, You're beautiful

I see You there hanging on a tree
You bled and then You died and then You rose again for me
Now You are sitting on Your heavenly throne
Soon we will be coming home
You're beautiful, You're beautiful

When we arrive at eternity's shore
Where death is just a memory and tears are no more
We'll enter in as the wedding bells ring
Your bride will come together and we'll sing
You're beautiful (x2)

I see Your face,
You're beautiful, You're beautiful, You're beautiful

I see Your face,
You're beautiful, You're beautiful, You're beautiful

I see Your face,
I see Your face

I see Your face,
You're beautiful, You're beautiful, You're beautiful

Youtube link: You're Beautiful by Phil Wickham

{my husband, my warrior}

   since i've been married to Joel, my spiritual warfare that i have occasionally has been exposed...and now that i'm writing this, its even more exposed :) satan does not like me. he does not like what i do. and i LOVE that! i think that means i'm doing something right...right?
   right before we got married, i got hired on as staff at our church. i was warned, that now that i'm in the ministry, to be strong and more prepared due to satan being upset. that very night, i was attacked at my weakest. on our honeymoon, we were sick the whole time, and we were sick pretty much until 2 months after our wedding. satan knew i was tired, and that only made me more ANGRY and STRONG in the coming months.
   that night, all i had to do was roll over, tell Joel what happened, and he prayed over me. its SO nice to know that i have a husband who fights for me in my moments of weakness. he has done this several times now, and the peace that comes over me is tremendous. his verse comes to mind:
   "there is no fear in love. but perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. the one who fears is not made perfect in love" 1 John 4:18
   Joel and i's love may not be perfect, but we sure try. and when we invite Jesus into our room (home), HIS perfect love drives out all of our fear and attacks. every environment that God creates, there is no fear. i pray a 'hedge of protection' over our marriage, home, jobs and families. in Job when satan is asking God what all he can do with Job, in Job 1:10 satan says to God, "have you not put a hedge around him and his household and everything he has?"
   Job 1 gives me so much comfort. this chapter shows me 2 things:
1. satan does not have control. God ALWAYS has the control. and its not like there is a constant spiritual dog fight around us constantly, satan is on a leash that God holds. it is ALL in Gods hands consitantly. satan can do nothing that God does not notice.
2. Job did not curse God...so why should i? when troubles come, or when i am being attacked, i try so hard not to ask, "why God? why?", instead, i declare that i am a child of God in the name of Jesus, and the fear is driven out and peace sets in. and when peace sets in, things dont look so bad.

I pray that people know within their hearts and minds, that no circumstances change who God is nor His character. satan is a growling, roaring lion who prowls around us, who knows us and studies us. we need to be just as alert as he is, so that we, as Christians, are on top of using the power that we already carry with us, which is in Christ Jesus.

{hearing God}

   like i said in my first post, the past few weeks ive really been hearing God tell me where to go in life, and that involves more devotional and prayer time with Him! its incredible of how God can use us. the past few years have been a major growth time for me in the area of prayer.
   growing up, i thought that i had to have a very specific amount of time with God every day, and that i had to journal, read the bible...etc. due to my past of going to a private christian school, i have always been burdened with devotions. this is only because i used to be graded on them. it was a rough time! for years i have thought that i needed to be graded or approved on what i had learned in my devotional time.
   so, the past few years i have truly been trying to grow in the area of prayer. its been such an amazing journey. its the simple things, such as talking to God while knowing He is always right next to me. talking to him in the car, on walks, at the grocery store, at my desk, while i'm cooking..etc. those simple conversations and prayers have led me to where i am today. through prayer exercises, i have seen what God can do! its the small things, such as walking by someone and knowing how they are feeling, having the urge to pray with someone as you are talking to them, waking up and being told to pray for a friend or family member, being told to call/text someone about what God wants me to tell them. its been so incredible!
   i share this only to let people know that it is possible. God does not yell nor does he show up glowing and point us where to go. its the tug on the heart, the thoughts and ideas that come to mind. its the suddenly waking up with a sad and heavy heart. the unexplained emotions as you pass someone or hear thier name. sometimes it may sure seem crazy, and i say to myself 'surely, that person isnt dealing with that!'. BUT we are all human, and if you are fully committed to hearing what He has to say, and doing what He needs you to do, you will know a whole unseen world. Jesus uses us to let others know what they cannot hear. "he who belongs to God hears what God says. the reason you do not hear is that you do not belong to God" - john 8:47
   i am not saying that if you are a Christian, and you cannot hear God, that you are fooled and you are not a Christian. what i am saying, is that it IS possible to hear God. you are fully equipped. you have the tools! choose to let God use you in this way, and clear your minds and hearts so that God can do His work.
"for we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do"- Ephesians 2:10

now go be Jesus!