{He is close}

"the Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit" -psalm 34:18

this past month has been a doozy. growing up, we are so careless, and we always assume that relationships and life will stay the same, right? and then life happens. and kids become individuals, adults. and sometimes, life takes you different directions. even if we are family, we are different people.

this month, i feel like i'm learning another lesson that God wants to teach me. and i always find myself weary and exhausted in saying, "again!?? i JUST learned another lesson!"...sometimes i've heard God go, "i know...deal with it"

of course, i'm not positive He says this, but i feel it. it may be me telling myself to shut up and just do what i feel i need to do. i realize i keep learning lessons because i'm a crappy human being. i dont deserve any of the love and grace that has been given to me. but God loves me. God gives me NEW mercies every day. it amazes me! i'm loved! i'm forgiven! yet i'm such a horrible person! :)

im not iffy on sharing how i feel about this. because i think a lot of us feel this way when we re-encounter the undeserving, overwhelming love that our God has for each and every one of us.

"no eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love Him- but God has revealed it to us by His spirit"
1 Corinthians 2:9-10